glad

sometimes i wish i could say things to people, like:
i hate you.
you're the worst.
why did God have to bring you in my life?
please go away.
i wish you were someone else.
eff you and your entitlement.
why are you nice to this person but such a jerk to me?
i shouldn't be crying over this petty thing, but i am. 
i never want to see your face again.
i don't know why i bother being sincerely nice to you, when you're still such an a-hole.
i love you, but i don't like you. 
leave.
go.


but you veer from the evil and hateful thoughts in your head and turn your heart to Jesus. surrender. cave into His love. His goodness. His grace. give your broken heart to Him, and eventually feel glad again, amidst the pain and suffering.


28 And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose. (Romans 8:28)