Most close friends already know this, but here it is:

I was once a very stubborn adult-child who thought she was in total control of her life. I went to church every Sunday and even asked God to allow me to sin (haha, the nerve!) because I've been a good girl since childhood. That was my (super dumb) reasoning. I was self-righteous. After sinning, I would say sorry to God, but fall into temptation...and eventually sin. I'd think, "Wow, this message at church, at this very moment, is really directed at me. I'm really going to have to stop my wrongdoings." Then Monday would roll in and I'm a whole different, awful person again. 

Because I wouldn't listen to God, He had to teach me the hard way to get my attention, to draw me closer to Him. I was so heartbroken and shattered and depressed, but I realized who God truly is in my life. I've since deepened my relationship with Jesus Christ and these days, I cling unto him and depend on his love (not the approval of human/s) to know my worth. 

This is why I share my story with those willing to listen. Once you've found your identity in Christ, nothing and no one can bring you down. It's only by His grace that I stand where I am today, with the help of my accountability sisters (to keep me on the right track!). ♡

But for those who have heard God's message(s) time and again but refuse to obey His Word, umm, all the best. Ha! But really, sometimes it's a good thing when God breaks your heart for what you've done that broke His. It's the beginning of your renewal and transformation. 

The question at the moment is: Do you wait for His discipline or do you take the initiative to truly turn from your ungodly ways?

Psalm 139:23-24
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Search me, O God, and know my heart;
    test me and know my anxious thoughts.
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Point out anything in me that offends you,
    and lead me along the path of everlasting life.