un-crush: the act of reversing the emotions that run through junior high girls' heads when finding someone cute, or, well, attractive

(un-crush is not a real word, of course)

i'm in the process of "un-crushing" someone because i think i may be on the verge of being delusional yet again. but i've realized that the easiest way to get over a crush is to imagine them being head-over-heels over someone (anyone, really, but the person you like least will probably work better). 

so that's that. 

i no longer want to be all wishy-washy in my head, being all wishful thinking and imagining the possibility of a future life with this crush. it's cute and all, but it's also such a torture. (because when i see or think about this person, i smile to myself. and this happens out of the blue, while i'm combating my way through a crowd or in mid-conversation with a friend, or even a stranger!) but also, what torment, not knowing how your crush sees you: a sister, a friend, a dude, just a girl whose body is shaped like an hour glass (haha!). seriously though. 

so this has to end. it's childish and cute at first, but when times passes you by, it tends to become more intense and emotional -- which is not fair to said crush (especially if you have actual interaction with them) and to yourself (because torture). 

oh, cute nerd. you've made me smile so much without your knowledge. (or were you aware?) but, thank you. i hope the person you end up with takes good care of your pure heart. 

so. 

unless a crush actually makes a super obvious move (like asking you out, or directly informing you that he/she is attracted and/or interested in you), let this be done: trust God (hehe, of course) and, well, un-crush.



now: i shall continue to crave cinnamon rolls from cinnabon (heavenly stuff) and sit back (but not sit still), and trust God in the process.