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chrisfel eliza

I don't think I think enough.















Thursday, March 21, 2013
Tuesday.


I know you care, but you can’t.

If I ruin my life, it is because of my own doing. I know you want to save me, but all I ever needed was someone who would listen. Not someone who would act on my behalf because that is not fair.

I know you mean well, but please don’t. You’re not the one who’s going to be stuck with the consequences of your good intentions. 

I know you mean well, but please stay out of it. It is my battle against myself and I just need someone who would put a little faith in me. Because you have absolutely no idea how it is in my shoes. I know you understand, you’re intelligent, you want the best for your friend, but you do not feel what I feel, are not pained with my hurts, do not cry the tears I shed.

It is my battle against myself, not yours.

I know you mean well, but I hope you won’t be the reason why I stop trusting people altogether. All over again.

Then I’d have to endure two heartbreaks instead of one. One is enough, don’t you think? 


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Who, then, can save me from this nightmare?

Jesus Christ, of course. He saved me a loooong time ago, but I need His grace and mercy once more. Every single day, in fact. He will help me through with what I am facing now, I trust in that. :’)

One of my favorite quotes of all time:
“You cannot save people. You can only love them.” 
- Anaïs Nin :)

I can’t save people either. But I do my best to love them, no matter what kind of people they are or they turn out to be. I really have no room for hate and anger towards others; perhaps this is why I can’t help but be so nice, even when others take advantage of me. But that is MY choice.

Sometimes even I cannot save myself. Because He wants me to turn to Him during these painful moments.

So, please. Do not save me; I already have a Mighty Saviour. Love me instead.