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chrisfel eliza

I don't think I think enough.
Friday, November 09, 2012
The biggest lie(s) in the world.

I'm fine.
I'm okay.
I'm just tired.

Work has been very demanding this past week. I've never felt more like a zombie-robot! To top it all off, the red sea has come to torture my insides. But thank God it's finally Friday! And it's pay day! Staying at home for the weekend seems extra appealing all of a sudden. I was planning to "socialize" but I guess I'll have to put that off for the time being. I feel so drained. 

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now it seems a world away but I miss that day
are we ever gonna feel the same


On the other hand, I still want to do something insane. It's one of the few things that get me excited about life when things have been too stagnant. It is unfortunate that I can't demand more from My Amusement Park. It renders its service for such limited hours a day; what if I need the thrill of a roller coaster at 3am? Or 3pm? I cannot simply demand it to entertain me for my benefit. That would be selfish of me.

So the plans of going on a fun night out with friends has been canceled. Yet I'm wondering if I should push through on my own. I can make new friends, right? After all, we all start out as strangers. If I end up going out on my own, I'm quite certain that I'll end up in a coffee shop, sitting on a table for two with my nose buried in a book. Or writing in my notebook. 

So I guess I'll be going home right after work tonight because attempting to be more "out there" is useless for the like of me: an awkward loner.

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Pero heto, totoo: Hindi naging kami, ever. Peksman.

chrisfel at 02:18