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chrisfel eliza

I don't think I think enough.















Sunday, April 08, 2012
There is not enough time, always.

I have been extremely preoccupied in the last few weeks. I haven't fully recuperated from the lack of sleep just yet, as well as my cough (though I am thankful my colds have gone away). Oh. And my voice still sounds semi-manly. Life has been going by too quickly and too slow and time is always running out.

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So glad to have Joey around in the morning.

So yes, I have decided to take on the part-time job in the morning at work, which is set for five weeks. For one, I honestly need the extra cash (because insurances are quite costly and I have been a little reckless with my credit card usage). And well, it's not like I have anything to do in the mornings anyway. I thought it would be pretty fun. :)

The first week was extremely difficult as I am definitely not a morning person. I kind of missed staying in bed until noon. (Also, the weather during the last week of March has been extra cool + rainy.) But I suppose I got the hang of it, eventually, and have come to realize that I actually like the morning life. Commuting to work isn't much of a problem (I have been taking the jeep!!! and the taxi, once) as there is no traffic whatsoever in the morning along Alabang-Zapote Road. Amazing. (I would take the car with me, but gas is sooo expensive now. And my parents think it is not a very good idea for a very sleepy me to drive. I agree.) Then there's the office environment. As I am staying on the 11th floor, there aren't too many people and it's just so quiet and peaceful -- which is something I haven't had in a long time in the office. The work itself is rather easy, but I've been really awful at finishing everything by 1300. Le sigh. I just get so...distracted. (What's new?)

Anyway, the usual routine is that Joey and I would go to Festi to grab lunch (McDonald's or Jollibee), which is actually nice but unhealthy. I have been consuming fries, burgers, spaghetti, floats, sundaes, and soda for the past two weeks. It's terrible. I think I have gained five pounds. (I really do not want to look at the weighing scale. T_T) But yeah, I'm doing my best to bring packed breakfast + lunch + dinner to work so as not to starve all the while maintaining a healthy diet. I do miss exercising as well. The worst thing about it all is fighting off sleep. I have brought a pillow to work and take power naps in-between classes, and that has been really helpful so far. I just need to stop eating so much. :|

But still. I like sleeping early and waking up early and going to work early. Just not...going home at 2300 because it is seriously tiring. Three more weeks to go. :)

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Richie has spent his first birthday away from us last April 3rd as well. The next thing you know, your kid brother is twenty years old. Wow. Since he's away, we just had a video greeting for him and ate at Sbarro. LOL. I'm not sure what he ended up doing, but I'm pretty sure plans of going to a strip club did not push through. It's illegal anyway. Haha!

So much to laugh about this clip, really. It still cracks me up.

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And now, Bitok.

Yesterday, Bitok had a small going away party with a few close friends from Bene. I know / have met five out of the six guys and I can honestly say that I like them. They're all really down to earth and...are still kids at heart. They just played card games and mah jong and chatted. But anyway, as with any other 'gathering' in the house, there were tons of food (which I partook in preparing and eating LOL)! 

Yesterday's menu included:
- sushi
- siomai
- soft taco
- menudo
- cream dory
- rotisserie chicken
- hotdog-wrapped pandesal

There goes my diet and low intake of carbs. Haha. But it's okay.

Anyway, since Arnet and JT decided to sleep over, Bitok didn't get to go to church with us this morning. Besides being touched with the message and the singing (really wonderful service this morning), I was getting all teary-eyed because Bitok was not around and it made me sad. We usually "discuss" things while at church and laugh and look at each other when the pastor shares something funny. Things like that. And it just struck me that I'm going to be very sad when he's flown out of the country for real. Le sigh. 

So this what Saturday (07 April) was like:
We did the groceries in the morning.

Took silly photos together when we came home.

Then his friends came over and spent the whole day / night eating, talking, playing. :)

And here is a little video during our drive home from SM in the morning. :')

I love my brothers way too much. I'm not really excited to become the only child again.

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So there. At this moment, I really don't know what to feel. I am both happy and sad. Or I am really sad, but trying my best to be happy. Or sometimes I'm really happy but a surge of sadness overcomes me. I think this famous line from Stephen Chbosky's The Perks of Being a Wallflower hits the spot:

“So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be.”