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Sunday, February 26, 2012

The perks of staying at home.

1. Free from spending.
2. Free food.
3. Sleep all you want.
4. Be productive.
5. Think of things you want to do with your life.
6. Family time.
7. Catch up with reading and writing.

I told myself there would be no going out over the weekend because I have been going here and there since the year started, which is honestly unlike my (old) self. Plus, I miss the feeling of not doing anything -- just me and the bed. Also, I need to cut down on my spending if I intend to make things happen later in the year. (Which I'm already quite hesitant and disheartened about, no thanks to over-thinking and over-analyzing and lack of willpower.) We'll see how it goes.

I did, however, manage to do my laundry and tidy up my room a bit (this morning). Mother also paid my credit card bills for me because I refused to go to the mall with them last night. I've also made up my mind with regards to my career, and hopefully that'll work out well. (Because seriously, I am not going to work in a call center. Besides, now is not the time to be veering further away from a real career.) I just feel like I still don't know what God wants me to do. There are so many companies, with positions I know I'm qualified for, that I could easily work for (modesty aside), but I just could not bring myself to click on the 'Send Resume' or 'Apply' button because...I don't know. I sometimes feel like I'm selling myself too short and could excel in a better field so perhaps I just really refuse to settle for such positions or companies. When I get out, I want to be somewhere better, not in the same position I was before. I just feel like I won't be able to make the kind of transition I want if I settle too easily for the sake of 'getting out'. I really believe I'm much more clever than that. But yes, in all truthfulness, I am no longer satisfied where I am at the moment, especially with regards to work. It's both sad and gratifying because I've become so comfortable there, but at least now I really know what I want. It's getting myself to take a big leap that's the problem.

Dear God, I just need Your help in this. I know You've got something amazing for me, but I'm scared and I don't know what to do and I'm impatient and sometimes I just feel so lost. But whatever the circumstance, please help me live out Your Will for me. :")

This literally spoke to me. (In fact, the whole book speaks to me.)

So there. If I had it my way, of course, I'd be...haha! I had a chat with my Ni Hao Twin, Rach, about it and the excitement started building up again with regards to that thing. It will work out only if God intends it to, and in His timing, of course. Sometimes I really lack faith and just feel so...stuck.

Okay, enough about my confusing and slightly morose contemplation about life. Teehee. Staying at home means being a spoiled brat and two nights in a row my parents have gone to the mall and returned home with the most awesome pasalubongs. (Because, yes, they still treat us like three-year olds --particularly, me, the baby girl-- and ask, "Anong gusto mo from SM?" Oh! And I LOVE how we live a step away from SM! Haha!)

Saturday night: "I want Dunkin' Donuts, please!"

And mother comes home with this in her hand. <3

Earlier tonight: "Look what we have!!!"

They came home with a huge bag of bread from Tous Les Jours!

(They have a 50% discount every night, at 8:30pm! All of these awesomeness cost

only Php400+, instead of Php800+! The family has a slight obsession with Tous Les Jours. :P)

Whilst sitting in church this morning, I was also grumbling about how hungry I was. HAHA. Mother asked me what I wanted for lunch and said lumpiang toge and sinigang na manok. So off we went to the supermarket after church and Pops cooked what I asked for. (Also, I dropped in a box of Curly Tops in the shopping cart, heehee.) I really am such a baby. But more importantly, I have the best parents in the world. ♥

With so much free time (and food to eat in front of the computer), I've managed to actually listen to new music. (Maybe not entirely new, but they're new to my ears.) Aside from the jazzy hip hop I've been enjoying since early this week, I've also come across The Kooks; Peter, Bjorn and, John; Lana Del Rey; and Martin Solveig. Also, I'm this close to becoming a Taylor Swift convert. HAHA. (Not that I dislike her, really. I just think she's too much of a teenybopper, but hey, she's pretty cool.) Okay, I'm really very eccentric when it comes to music, but I'd like to believe I have impeccable taste. LOL. Right. Okay then.

This weekend has been really awesome and laid-back and just really good overall. =)

I could stick around and get along with you, hello.

It doesn't really mean that I'm into you, hello.

You're alright but I'm here, darling, to enjoy the party.

Don't get too excited 'cause that's all you get from me, hey.

Yeah, I think you're cute, but I really you should know.

I just came to say hello, hello, hello, hello.


*I don't think I think enough.* tumblr instagram previous posts home	Sunday, February 26, 2012 The perks of staying at home. 1. Free from spending. 2. Free food. 3. Sleep all you want. 4. Be productive. 5. Think of things you want to do with your life. 6. Family time. 7. Catch up with reading and writing. I told myself there would be no going out over the weekend because I have been going here and there since the year started, which is honestly unlike my (old) self. Plus, I miss the feeling of not doing anything -- just me and the bed. Also, I need to cut down on my spending if I intend to make things happen later in the year. (Which I'm already quite hesitant and disheartened about, no thanks to over-thinking and over-analyzing and lack of willpower.) We'll see how it goes. I did, however, manage to do my laundry and tidy up my room a bit (this morning). Mother also paid my credit card bills for me because I refused to go to the mall with them last night. I've also made up my mind with regards to my career, and hopefully that'll work out well. (Because seriously, I am not going to work in a call center. Besides, now is not the time to be veering further away from a real career.) I just feel like I still don't know what God wants me to do. There are so many companies, with positions I know I'm qualified for, that I could easily work for (modesty aside), but I just could not bring myself to click on the 'Send Resume' or 'Apply' button because...I don't know. I sometimes feel like I'm selling myself too short and could excel in a better field so perhaps I just really refuse to settle for such positions or companies. When I get out, I want to be somewhere better, not in the same position I was before. I just feel like I won't be able to make the kind of transition I want if I settle too easily for the sake of 'getting out'. I really believe I'm much more clever than that. But yes, in all truthfulness, I am no longer satisfied where I am at the moment, especially with regards to work. It's both sad and gratifying because I've become so comfortable there, but at least now I really know what I want. It's getting myself to take a big leap that's the problem. Dear God, I just need Your help in this. I know You've got something amazing for me, but I'm scared and I don't know what to do and I'm impatient and sometimes I just feel so lost. But whatever the circumstance, please help me live out Your Will for me. :") This literally spoke to me. (In fact, the whole book speaks to me.) So there. If I had it my way, of course, I'd be...haha! I had a chat with my Ni Hao Twin, Rach, about it and the excitement started building up again with regards to that thing. It will work out only if God intends it to, and in His timing, of course. Sometimes I really lack faith and just feel so...stuck. Okay, enough about my confusing and slightly morose contemplation about life. Teehee. Staying at home means being a spoiled brat and two nights in a row my parents have gone to the mall and returned home with the most awesome *pasalubongs. (Because, yes, they still treat us like three-year olds --particularly, me, the baby girl-- and ask, "Anong gusto mo from SM?"* Oh! And I LOVE how we live a step away from SM! Haha!) Saturday night: "I want Dunkin' Donuts, please!" And mother comes home with this in her hand. <3 Earlier tonight: "Look what we have!!!" They came home with a huge bag of bread from Tous Les Jours! (They have a 50% discount every night, at 8:30pm! All of these awesomeness cost only Php400+, instead of Php800+! The family has a slight obsession with Tous Les Jours. :P) Whilst sitting in church this morning, I was also grumbling about how hungry I was. HAHA. Mother asked me what I wanted for lunch and said lumpiang toge and sinigang na manok. So off we went to the supermarket after church and Pops cooked what I asked for. (Also, I dropped in a box of Curly Tops in the shopping cart, heehee.) I really am such a baby. But more importantly, I have the best parents in the world. ♥ With so much free time (and food to eat in front of the computer), I've managed to actually listen to new music. (Maybe not entirely new, but they're new to my ears.) Aside from the jazzy hip hop I've been enjoying since early this week, I've also come across The Kooks; Peter, Bjorn and, John; Lana Del Rey; and Martin Solveig. Also, I'm this close to becoming a Taylor Swift convert. HAHA. (Not that I dislike her, really. I just think she's too much of a teenybopper, but hey, she's pretty cool.) Okay, I'm really very eccentric when it comes to music, but I'd like to believe I have impeccable taste. LOL. Right. Okay then. This weekend has been really awesome and laid-back and just really good overall. =) I could stick around and get along with you, hello. It doesn't really mean that I'm into you, hello. You're alright but I'm here, darling, to enjoy the party. Don't get too excited 'cause that's all you get from me, hey. Yeah, I think you're cute, but I really you should know. I just came to say hello, hello, hello, hello. chrisfel at 23:28 << Home