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chrisfel eliza

I don't think I think enough.















Thursday, February 16, 2012
The lists I make.

Right now I would rather be
sitting on a hilltop beneath the stars.
sunbathing on a quiet beach.
hiking through a forest of pine trees.
sitting in an airplane.
driving to no particular destination.
reading the novels sitting (waiting) on my bedside table.
trekking on snow.
jumping and dancing at a live rock concert.
sitting on a swing in the middle of a giant garden.
having a safari expedition.
drinking tea in a quiet coffee shop.
walking around Paris.
getting lost in a city I've never been before.
holding hands with the person I love.
cuddling with the person I love.
waiting for a flight at the airport.
roasting marshmallows on a bonfire.
relaxing in a five-star hotel room.
sleeping in a tent.
flying to an exotic destination; Machu Picchu, perhaps.

But I am currently
drinking my Chinese slimming tea.
trying to finish correcting essays to no avail.
exchanging text messages with a friend.
tweeting a friend (or two).
refreshing my Tumblr dashboard every other minute.
plotting ways to finally leave my comfort zone.
obsessing over grey, high-top Chuck Taylors.
listening to Everclear.
daydreaming.

I need to
finish correcting these essays.
mail in some documents, via LBC.
deposit money in my checking and savings accounts.
pay my phone bill.
get some sleep now.
wake up early enough for a morning walk.
stop eating so much carbs.
exercise, exercise, and exercise.
look for a new _____.
fix my life.

I like
laughing with people.
smiling to myself.
reading.
writing in my notebooks, not on blogs, like there's no tomorrow.
taking photographs.
talking to God.
listening to nineties music.
chocolates.
drinking tea.
being in the company of good people.
talking to my super close friends.
writing e-mails to Gelo.
reconnecting with old friends.
making new friends.
constructive criticism.
shoe shopping.
being told I'm beautiful.

I don't like
excessive compliments.
unfriendly salespeople or shopkeepers.
monthly bills.
mean people.
gossip and gossiping.
chipped nail polish.
procrastinating.
eating too much.
feeling fat every day.
not having enough money for things I want to purchase and do.
being stuck.
not knowing what step to take next.
being lied to.
being sad.
bumping into corners of tables.
being surrounded by people but still feel so alone.

I am
exhausted.
bored.
missing something.
fearful.
excited.
not in love.
still single.
craving for chocolate and cakes.
more than blessed.
a child of God.
happy.