Today I found out that Lola Tuding has passed away. I'm not so sure, but I think she went on yesterday, on the 26th.

It's just so..surreal. It's equally painful and comforting that we would have to live with the fact that Lola Tuding is no longer with us. It's painful because I'm going to miss her words of wisdom and how she would pass by the house on Saturdays and things like that. It's comforting because I know she's no longer hurting or suffering from her ailments and that at age 91, she has gone on to be with Jesus Christ.

Though Lola Tuding is not a blood relative, she's certainly lived to be more than an extended family with us, from when we were still residing in Hawaii until the very last days. I've always considered her as a real grandmother. I guess I'm just sad right now because though I felt that way, I never really told her (in its verbal sense) how much she meant to me. I hope God goes on to tell Lola for me. I'm going to miss her so much.