My 22nd year is coming to a near end. In a couple of weeks I would add another number to my age. I would play my 22nd year in my head and note the significant moments. But were there really noteworthy events?

As I'm typing this memories start playing in my head. It's a little disappointing when you've come to realize that majority of the events are either work-related or just plain hanging around at home. We at least there have been some fun times with fun people.

Not much has changed; life seems so stagnant at times.

Though there are a number of blessings that I have received (in no particular order)
1. my work seems to be getting more stable
2. I'm financially independent
3. I'm slowly but surely (I hope!) learning the real meaning of being a Christian (yes, it is still one of the hardest things for me)
4. I'm learning to think things through so that I may make wise decisions
5. continuous awesome relationship with the family (yes, despite the selected not-so-good moments)
6. I got life insurance (teehee!)

Awesome, yes? I think so. But I'm not too satisfied. I feel like I should have done more; that I should be doing more. Sometimes I feel that I'm not doing what I'm supposed to do. Or that I've done something wrong along the way that brought me farther from the things that could have happened. Though God is in control of my life, I know that I should be doing my part just the same. But I feel that I've had a lot of inadequacies throughout the past year. The bottom line is, I feel that I haven't done enough.


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One of the things I'd like to happen in my 23rd year is..well..buy someone special a nice gift. Weird? Hmm, not really. It goes deeper than that line, really. Let's put it this way: instead of spoiling my brothers to death, I'd like to spend some money on someone else. So there.