Rarely do I go out (nor go to work, of all places!) in such an attire that screams: COLOR!
Well that was fun. :)
I think I'll get rid of my jeans for good. HAHA. Or not.

This past week had been gloomy, gray, cloudy and rainy. AND I LOVE IT! I wish it would rain every day, all year long. I won't mind. Sure, it's icky to get your feet wet in the rain and it's such a hassle to commute to places and such..but the rain is just way too wonderful for me.

I slept last night; it was raining. I woke up this morning; it was raining. It's still raining right now. I hope it never ends. :) Today I've made up my mind: I won't get out of bed. I haven't had breakfast or lunch. Today it will just be me, in bed, with the laptop. Because sometimes you need to just take it slow and let the rain wash over you. (Though I'll probably get rid of some junk in my room later on, for the sake of being 'productive'.)


I've been on a crazy, emotional roller coaster for the past few days. I hate it because it makes it difficult for me to concentrate at work; I'd probably be able to handle it if the web cam weren't in my face most of the day. It's easier to fake perkiness in your voice. But for the most part I have been off the beat happy, floating on tralala land --- so I suppose there had been moments where I truly depicted happiness and perkiness in front of my students. But that's the thing..I also love the emotional roller coaster I'm on because it inspires me to look good and feel joy from deep within. I'm probably not making sense.

Bottom line is: I want to get rid of the high school girl feelings within me because I really am getting distracted with all that surrounds me. But I like the happy feelings. I want it to stop because it's wrong and it's getting in the way, but I want to keep it because it just feels so good.

SIGH.


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Focus, Chrisfel. FOCUS.