save me.

Feels like I'm being held captive by the Department of Foreign Affairs. It's kinda crazy, but it's true. Must be because I spend about thirteen hours a day in the office. And about an hour and a half for morning traffic and an hour for the night home. That equals to roughly fifteen and a half hours (out of the twenty-four hours given each day!) spent away from my real comfort zone -- my bed! (Okay, and the house and brothers and parents and whatever social life I may have left.) I have having to endure through this OJT madness. I am just so physically exhausted and possibly even mentally drained. This sucks so bad.

Plusss..my friends and schoolmates (that I've come to be friends with, thanks to lunch breaks) are all done! So there's just me and trainees from other schools whome I haven't made friends with. Haha. [Okay, not like I'm a snob nor do I suffer from superiority complex..but I'd just really feel out of place because big groups of them come from the same schools. I mean, we used to be the "big bunch" of trainees from Benilde. But now..there's just me from CSB. *tear* Haha.] Well, okay, there's a few more people from CSB, but I don't know them well (just by face) because they belong to higher batches or whatever. But yeah, bottom line is, I'm pretty much a loner. =(

Okay, okay..overacted just a little. Haha. I'm not a total loner just yet. It's nice that Errol and Mark still manages to come in (even though they're well over their hours -- too bad they can't donate their accumulated hours to me) so I still have some people to spend lunch with. And of course Ci is still here, whose last day is on Friday. (And I think she'll have finished up her 500 hours before lunchtime. 'Twas nice hanging out with her and Joan for the past few weeks. =) (Joan left earlier today for a vacation in Saudi.) Argh. Still leaves me the same fate -- alone during lunch (on Friday and Monday). Haha. Ang arte! I mean, lunch break is from 12nn to 1330..which is kinda long, especially if I have no one to spend it with. LMAO. What a dilemma! But yeah, if I make 10 hours today (and I WILL!!!), then I'd have exactly 24 hours left (plus something minutes) -- so I'll try and work 12 hours tomorrow and on Friday. AND THEN I'll come in on Monday just work some extra hours just to be sure. And that's it! I hope.. =/

Sorry for the rant, but it's all about finishing up my OJT these days.

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how can i stand here with you and not be moved by you? would you tell me how could it be any better than this? 'cause you're all i want, you're all i need, you're everything. everything. - Lifehouse

Arghhh.

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So I pretty much missed out on life because of this OJT shabang. Sucks to be me. Plus I've had invitations for out of town trips (Tagaytay, Puerto, Batangas, etc.) -- all of which I just couldn't say yes to because of this stupid OJT. Waaaaa.

Anyway, I'd like to think that my school is at fault for this extremely 'out of body' experience'. Haha. Or whatever you wanna call it. I mean, who, in their right minds, would require FIVE HUNDRED HOURS of internship? DUHHH. Do they not know that all the trainees do are clerical work?! I mean, what else could we really do? Some things that go around in the office are confidential and some are just plainly out of any students' league. Insane. My school's insane. xp

I'll get through this. Just three more working days. Three more.