so yesterday.

I'm over the depression phase.
(Well, for the most part, that is. xp Good enough, yes? Yes. I think so too.)



In the office --

Since I've been sitting around the office (doing nothing) most of the time, I was finally handed some "real" work: drafting letters/memos/replies. And all these letters are for "big people" in the political (human rights, specifically) scene. Haha. (Feeling! xp) It's cool. I mean, isn't it quite a task to have to write a letter to the Secretary of the Department of Justice? Haha. xp At least I'm on a learning process! (Photocopying, binding, classifying files is sooo not a "learning" thing. Haha.)

So I'm not too crapped out with the "OJT at the DFA" ordeal anymore. It's getting better. (Plus, I've finished up more than 100 hours! Accomplishment much?! Haha. 300++ hours to go!! xp)


Crap Day

So yes, I wore my planned outfit -- BLACK from head to toe as an expression of how/what I felt yesterday. Call me bitter, I couldn't care less. What's wrong with a little bit of expression? Haha. But, puta, a lot of people were wearing all-black. Does that mean there's a lot of bitter (fine, loveless!) people? Haha. For instance, Princess, Wilbert and I were all in black. (No planning involved, swear!) Tapos magkakadikit pa kami during lunch break. Haha.

And Miko practically bitched us (me + Cess) off while in the bus, going to school after OJT. Haha. Leche, suplado! Then Cess and I had our "date" (haha!) at McD's -- ice cream. Comfort (not to mention fatty) food. Yay. xp

Then I went to work.

And back to McDonald's for some hot chocolate -- a treat for myself.

I promised I'd be better after the hot chocolate. I think I am. =)
(McD's hot choco, by the way, sooo kicks Starbucks' hot choco's ass!!! Hahaha! Pramisss.)


Is this the end of the sad days?

Well, no. Life is still crap (I mean, you can't expect it to become all wonderful again overnight!), but I really think I'm learning how to cope better this time around. Like talking for a really looooong time with my bestest friend in the world. (Where else can you find a best friend who lives up in the heavens with the shimmery stars?! HE's never left me behind and I know HE never will.) So yes, I'm all good.

I know that this depression shabang in my life right now isn't exactly very appealing to the spiritual brothers and sisters. (LOL!) But in all seriousness, I really think I just needed to be "emo" (emotional! haha) just to let out some stuff. I mean, keep it in you and you die faster. So duh, what's wrong with crying and bawling your eyes out? What's wrong with hating the world for a few days? (Fine, a couple of weeks for me. lol) There's absolutely nothing wrong with it -- we're humans, aren't we?

Life's not perfect. But these imperfections are what pushes us to get through each day, which in turn makes us wiser/stronger people (if we learn our lessons right!). And then it's just another yesterday, could-be-better today, and a looking-forward tomorrow. Because we all live to hope that tomorrow will be a better day.