so what now?

Thoughts bothering me at this precise moment:

1. Where am I going for OJT/internship next term? I haven't applied ANYWHERE and the Department of Foreign Affairs is seriously my last resort.. (I don't think I'm up to making coffee for the government employees and stapling stacks of paper. Really, now..)

2. I'm fucking fat. Again. (Just one reason to hate the holidays!)

3. I want to remain a bum for the rest of my life and NOT work.

4. I am merely afraid of what could be in the future. =(

5. I don't want to stay in this country. For sureeee.


Yeah. Just a thought.


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What? It's 2007 tomorrow night?! Already?!
Golly, how time flies!
Time is so...ew.


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What have we been doing over the past several days (of Christmas break)?
- eating
- sleeping
- hangin' out at the lanai
- eating
- sleeping

Can you sense the fatness? Yeah. Sucks, doesn't it? I seriously need to get back in shape. Looking at myself in the mirror is gradually making me sick. (Uh-oh. Self-esteem issues arisin'! Ha. My bad.) But yeah. I'm gaining weight -- and fast! And it sucks. I need to get out of the house more often. And walk and exercise and shizz like that. (Too much food in the house. Argh.)


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We were at church earlier today because Bitok is part of the chorus people who will be singing during the worship for tomorrow morning. I'm quite excited to watch/listen to them all -- they sounded well during the rehearsal today. But yeah, I'll be the photographer (shh, don't laugh!) -- I hope I can enjoy watching/listening to them just as well. I wish everyone could come and see -- it's gonna be awesomeeee! =)

And afterwards we went to SM and walked (exercise!!!) and Bitok bought a sketch pad (the kid finishes up all the pages in a sketch pad in a week!) and then he treated us a box munckins from Dunkin'! Haha. Then we walked home. More exercise!! Haha. Everyone's been making fun of me and my fatties. Frick. All the more I MUST get some weight off.

Eeewww.


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Anyway, I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas.
(I think I'm gradually forgetting/leaving behind my Christmas spirit. It didn't even feel like Christmas. Man, am I losing it? Or is it just because I'm getting old? And Santa's NOT real??!! WTF?! Some people are so cruel. Don't tell me Santa's not real. Ugh.)

Andddd. Have an awesome New Year!!!!
(Stupid "bomba" fireworks! Those things are sooo gay. But anyway, celebrate the coming of the New Year with style, friends! Do some wine or champagne toasting! Have a barbecue on the lanai while watching the fireworks in the sky! And well, hope and pray for a better year ahead!)


TWO-THOUSAND-AND-SEVEN.
Here we come.

Happy New Year, lovers!!!