Earlier today, Bitok and I drove to SM to do the groceries. It's just kinda sad that Richie isn't around to enjoy the moment with us. Ha. But anyway, we just love being in the car, listening to good music while talking about life. What I don't like, on the other hand, is when we're at the supermarket and he just puts in a bunch of things he likes in the big cart. HAHA! This little boy thinks I crap money or something, but I spoil him anyway; it's so hard for me to not buy what he wants. Same goes with Richie, but Bitok is much more...makapal ang mukha. LOL. Oh well. Thank goodness for credit cards. (Yikes!)

When we got home, I was tasked to cook dinner. (I wanted to drive back out of the driveway when my parents told me this, so I could just buy some pizza instead, to which Mother replied, "Kayong dalawa! Napaka-gastos niyo talaga!" LOL.) I cooked fried tilapia for the first time. (Thank goodness for visible labels at the supermarket -- I swear, my brother and I had no idea how tilapias looked like, uncooked. Losers much.) Anyway, it just had to be covered in flour and deep fried, so it wasn't too difficult. I'm rather useless in the kitchen, except for when cooking up some pasta or baking, so I am still a bit uneasy with frying stuff...because I'm afraid of the oil spitting from the pan. I think I put too much oil in the large frying pan because as I was cooking, there were moments of oil spillage. HAHA. Diyahe much (as if touching raw, uncooked, scaly, weird-smelling fish was not diyahe enough!). But yay, everyone ate what I cooked.

I think my parents are enjoying this: seeing my brothers and I do things on our own. They're trying really hard to get rid of the lazy, spoiled, bratty babies living within us. HAHA.

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"Don't rely on someone else for your happiness and self worth. If you can't love and respect yourself, no one else will."

“You can’t be loved unless you love yourself first.”

So yes, I'm browsing through Tumblr and Twitter and come across so many lines similar to those ^ two. I do agree with this person because those sayings are imbibed with the notion that one cannot be loved if one does not love him or herself first. AND WHY NOT? One does not have control of others' emotions...and it kinda pushes the idea of one not deserving any form of love or care from others. So yeah, it's a dumb thing to say to anyone. A person should have self-worth, self-respect, and self-love, YES, but it's just so wrong to tell those who are already suffering from low self-esteem or insecurities that they cannot be loved. When I regress and do not have so much love for myself, it always warms up my heart when friends and family make sure I feel their love...and yes, it does help me realize that I am worth more than what I think. I presume it would help anyone to get up on their feet and start loving themselves again. What is wrong with this world?   Annoyed much (with that "saying"). 

Totally agree with this: You don’t have to love yourself for other people to love you, it’s just important to love yourself no matter what.

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On a lighter note, as my brother and I strolled around the mall, I realize that there are SO MANY BOOKS I want to read. I was so compelled to have my credit card swiped, but NO. Resisted temptation. Haha! I want to buy books by Chuck Palahniuk, Nail Gaiman, and Charles Bukowski; not less than three books each, too! MY GOSH. So for Christmas this year, I will most likely fill my stocking with books, books, books. I'm sooo excited! (Hopefully, my laptop gets resurrected, because if not, I'll probably buy a new one...and I'm definitely eyeing a MacBook Pro. *dies*) I can't believe Christmas is less than a hundred days away! I need to start making my Christmas list soon! ^_^