This was the exact line I mentioned to my ever-awesome Pseudo Best Friend. I'm pretty sure it was the first time I actually said it aloud. Anyway, he asked me why and I don't think I answered properly. (Because I'm just graceless like that when I'm talking to him, I suppose. HAHAHA! Kidding. Sorta.)

I've been thinking about it. So here is an attempt to give logical reasons.

I have a lot of love to give to others, but I have even more for the one God chooses for me. I want to be able to care for somebody as well as to love unconditionally despite human imperfections. It may sound strange, but I know for sure that I will be this ever-faithful partner in all aspects. I see it in my parents, the way they care for and love each other with such devotion; I would want to do the same to whomever he may be. It seems difficult to explain, but there's simply this huge amount of love I carry in me that I want to give all of it to (yes, all of it for him) when God says it's time. It's a different kind of love, not like my love for God or for my family or friends, but the kind of love that is made especially to give to whomever he may be. I guess this love has always been in me and since I haven't really been involved with anyone in my entire existence, it just grew and grew and grew and now I think it's about ready to explode. (Haha, seems logical enough yet?)

I don't know for sure what to expect from him, but in all honesty, I would want the same kind of love coming from him. That would be nice. :)

I would like the kind of romance that requires no objects or words or special actions. The simple act of me burying my face in his chest with his arms around me, without uttering words, is romance enough for me. Just knowing that he exists and that he understands me, even in silence, is all the beauty I would need.

I would like to have a reason to smile daily, even on really bad days. Just because he's right beside me right before I fall into a slumber and will remain beside me when I blink my eyes open in the morning.

I would like to have that one particular person to do silly things with, no matter what age we are, to tell all that my soul has kept hidden so well, share dreams with; someone whom I can bare all that I am to and one who would do the same with me. And no matter what, we'd be okay because we would accept and embrace each others' imperfections as we were created to be perfect for one another.

I would like a friend for life and I would like to be somebody's friend for life, until our very last days on Earth.

Love is amazingly beautiful, all forms of it. But this kind of special love is just beyond my comprehension. I know I may seem like I'm falling into dreamland yet again, but when I look at my parents, I know this kind of love exists. I can't wait to experience such love. In God's time. :)