Just like any other girl's dream, I wish to fall in love with my very own Prince Charming that God has molded especially for me.

I know that people are so smitten with the kind of love the world offers: sweet kisses, chocolates and flowers on Valentine's, fancy gifts on special occasions, out-of-town trips together; romance, romance, romance.

I certainly don't want the kind of "love" that is based or perpetuated on romance, as nice as it seems. (Though I know that romance is an integral part in keeping relationships "alive," I wouldn't want it to be totally dependent on that.) I want the kind of love that Jesus Christ ordains Himself. I want a relationship wherein Christ is the center of so that my partner and I would set our eyes on things that are eternal and not of the world. I would love to serve the Lord with him and to be living testimonies of God's love. I mean, that to me, would just be...amazing. I know challenges will still arise, but we will get through them, hand in hand, as we pray together. And we would have the best relationship ever because unlike many others, there would be three people in it: Christ, him, and I. And we would become one. It makes me smile just thinking about it. :)

I think it is just amazing that God has already chosen someone for me and that I have been chosen for someone. I know there are times of doubt, wondering, "Will I ever really meet him?" But I just believe in it so much that my doubts are gradually crumbling. Then again, I do not know what God's plan is. (I have honestly thought about possibly becoming a spinster...and if that were to happen, I will adopt children. Maybe even set up my own orphanage.^^)

Anyway, back to dreaming of a marriage.

My very own Nanay would probably be my number one role model of all married women. For one, Tatay was her first and only boyfriend despite the line of men, awaiting for her heart. So yes, I'd love the same: for my husband to be my first kiss...first everything. Haha. First, only, and last boyfriend + husband in my life. You know who else is a role model wife for me? TL Maylin. Yup. She's very much like my mother; her husband is her first everything. I mean...that's amazing. It's proof that they have been richly rewarded by God. It's like He's saying, "Search no more. Here he is, the one I created for you. The one whose rib you were made from. The one I decided you should spend the rest of your life with." That is just beautiful. I wonder if (and I wish!) the same would happen to me. This is one of the reasons why I'm keeping myself pure as well. I vowed to myself and to God that I will never engage in premarital sex. I know in today's age, people roll their eyes at women who have had no such experiences...but I was not made for this world. Besides, wouldn't that be a wonderful gift to a husband? HAHA OH EM GEE, TOO MUCH INFO, I think. :P (Well, I've always been honest about this particular matter. My family and my friends know my stand on this. So yeah.)

I also imagine what kind of wife I'd make. They say that a child follows the ways of his or her parents, so does that mean I will end up like one or both of my parents? Hmmm. That's a thought. I don't always agree with their style, but I do have a rather long list of positive attributes from my parents. I know for sure I'll put the good ones to use...and refer to the Bible for guidance on how to be a good wife and mother. It seems very exciting.

For the past two months (could it have been more?), the messages at church have been focused on Christ-centered families and marriages (which was the topic this morning), hence the inclination to blog about this matter. I think I may have been picking up way too much from the messages. (Which means...yay! I'm learning!) Plus, so many people I know have gotten married this year. Or have had babies. I'm just pretty much amazed with two people making a life-long commitment with one another. It seems really wonderful to have a life-long partner. :)

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It is pretty daunting, most times, at gatherings, when people ask me, "May boyfriend ka na ba, hija?" or "Marami sigurong nanliligaw sa'yo, no?" To which I would reply in the most polite manner, accompanied with a smile, "Wala pa po." I used to be really embarrassed about it in the past because it made me feel like a big loser. I mean, people would gasp and widen their eyes, saying, "Ano! Eh ang ganda-ganda mong bata ka! Matalino pa! (insert endless amount of compliments) Bakit wala?" Of course I had no comeback to that. Sometimes I'd flat out say, "Eh wala pong nagkaka-gusto sakin eh." They (try?) to make me feel better every now and then with things like, "Hay nako! Takot lang sila sayo kasi magaling at maganda kang bata ka. Na-iintimidate lang yung mga yun sayo." HAHAHAHA! I love old people sometimes. But how is that supposed to make me feel better? So guys are afraid of me? LOL.

However, now that I'm older and have learned much more, my usual response to that overly-asked question sounds something like, "Hindi pa po dumadating yung galing kay God eh. Wait muna daw po." I learned that conversations about the matter do not prolong as well as they'd simply reply with, "Ay oo nga! Mabuti yan! Dapat ganyan!" Haha. But it's true. I am waiting, still waiting. God knows when the perfect time is; His timing is always perfect. God knows who he is; He always brings the best, the one we truly deserve and one who deserves us just the same. My point is, I want what God wants, what God wills. Not mine.

My love story has already been written by God Himself. Could one ask for a better author?